Meng Ye

2008-01-22T02:12:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE BLOGSPOT!

GOODBYE!

everyone say hello to....

THIS

farewell to all these posting problems!hohoho

2008-01-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

There are many many many parts to life right? (relationships, personal character, work, ministry, soul ect ect) How many of these parts have you surrendered to Jesus?

Today i kinda realised that we need to kill ourselves daily.

Of course, everyone of us feel what we have to feel and will do what we have to do. You know like, feel jealous when somebody takes something away from you? or pass a comment on somebody, just because you didnt like his/her dressing. whatever that might be, i guess its only natural for us to feel a certain way or do certain things that are not godly.

theres no wrong in doing it, its only human nature.

However, if you love God and want Him to work in your life, i suppose we all have to take up that pistol/dagger (choice of weapon is yours) and shoot/stab that part of you dead.

The reason why you do that is because that old nature of yours is filthy and smeeeelley, if only you could see how much it is.

Recently, i've uncovered one of these filthy parts i have, and im pretty determined to commit suicide on that. The only thing is, if you know anything about suicides, one does not succeed at first attempt. Therefore, i have resulted to cutting parts off instead of the preferred way of shooting it dead once and for all. i know, strong and courageous i may seem, i do not dare/cant bare to let go of my junk. even if its decomposing, maggot infested junk.

Its mind-boggling that we love to keep rubbish. Whats the motivation behind that really? is it comfort? familiarity? nostaligia? i have not the faintest idea. Being human, i admit, i love to keep my junk, even if it's rotting. But my Jesus doesnt like junk. i'll just have to bring in the garbage man.

give us clean hands, give us pure hearts.

2008-01-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

i'm keeping a diary. a small little one which i write my schedule in and my thoughts and feelings of the day. its a good thing i suppose. You know how some famous people keep diaries and they are so interesting because they reveal facts that nobody knows until those entries are read after that particular person dies.

haha..not that im becoming famous, its just that i thought it'll be good that 30 years down the road, i'd be able to see how much i have grown and laugh at my own youth. Or maybe after i have pass on, people will finally get to know how much i love them and what exactly is on my mind, just that i wasnt able to put across to the rest of the human world verbally.

oh wells, just like nobody knew how Jews actually lived during the Holocaust until Anne Frank came about.

I suppose what happened at Babel wasnt a coincidence. God's way of confusing us resulted in the invention of the world's most amazing, wonderful and beautiful thing - language. I wonder how come God's "punishment" would even end up beautiful. maybe God did Babel on purpose, He wanted the later generations to use their unique culture and sounds to honour Him with what He has given us. Perhaps what our forefathers did was a chess piece in history, so as to provide us with this awesome thing called language.

ok..i will not ramble on. You guys are bored already. haha. i just think theres so much goodness is what we use everyday to bond, to survive, to love, to think, to respond...its amazing.

nvm if you dont understand the post. hahahaha.

2008-01-12T16:57:00.000+08:00

You know how growing is like a snake changing its skin?

You're outgrowing the old skin, it gets terribly uncomfortable, then you start struggling to get the old skin off. The process gets so tough you feel like you should just remain small and keep the old skin, save the trouble of changing a new one. So you struggle and struggle, because each day you get bigger, and the old skin dont fit you anymore. Finally, you're out of it, and you see how disgusting your old skin actually is.

okay, i have no idea why i wrote that, but its just a thought that has been bugging me for the past few days. ahh..its just growing pains that everyone has to go through i suppose.

we dont get to the end if theres no process. grow out of it.

2008-01-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

i just realised something. very important.

as im typing this you're probably on the plane somewhere or have already arrived.

i just wanna say,

JULIANNE! I'LL MISS YOU!

stay safe over there and enjoy yourself as much as possible before you return and tell us all your stories. when you come back maybe we'll go for one of our bintan trips again! haha.

take care girl!

see you in 6 mths!

2008-01-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

first post of the new year. 3 days late i know.

because life haven't been treating me too well for the past 2 weeks or so ever since Audacious! camp ended.

1. i fell sick. really really sick.

i got sick from the day i returned home from camp until today i just recovered. Praise the Lord. I'm usually healthy and illnesses don't last for more than 2 days, no idea what happened this time. and i swear i thought the Lord was gonna bring me home last night. my dad lifted up my arm and said to my mom:"look at her, so skinny, what if she dies?" and my poor mother began to cry. *(&#@&@()

and yes, i was in so much pain i really thought i saw angels singing over my bed. Thank goodness i got much better today, and i stood on the weighing scale expecting myself to lose only a few kg. apparently its not just a few, i wont tell you my weight now cause it'll freak all of you out. no joke. i stood on the scale with my mouth opened for 5 mins, amazed at the amount of weight i lost. sigh.

now i know what it means to take good care of your body.

on a happier note, dinner today was the only meal i finished in 2 weeks. congrats congrats. now to gaining some weight back.

2. emo issues.

of which i wont mention much, but I'll just say I'm really heartbroken. really really heartbroken.

I'm sure I'll get back on my feet again. life's too short for me to mope around.

3. stress.

this is one factor that shorten one's life span. project deadlines in approximately 2 weeks. going into a new school, enlarging myself, ministry. Lord, i really dunno how I'm gonna do it. because i really cant. its all up to You.

4. fear.

i am scared. damn scared. of what i have no idea. just very afraid of what this new year has to bring. i hope 2008 treats me well, even though the year did not start on a good note at all.

i have never felt so overwhelmed in my entire life before.

2007-12-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF LATE:

1. emotions and feelings, these are weird things.

2. if only humans werent social animals, life would be much easier.

3. but then again, relationships are the best thing you can ever get out of life.

4. what does it take Lord, for me to come up higher?

5. its the end of 2007.

6. beginning of 08.

7. yet another time to take stock of this soul.

8. i say bring it on.

2007-12-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

"Another year is fast approaching. Go be that starving Artist you’re afraid to be. Open up that journal and get poetic finally. Volunteer. Suck it up and travel. You were not born here to work and pay taxes. You were put here to be part of a vast organism to explore and create. Stop putting it off. The world has much more to offer than what’s on 15 televisions at TGI Fridays. Take pictures. Scare people. Shake up the scene. Be the change you want to see in the world.

You’ll thank yourself for it."

-Wise words of Jason Mraz.

sigh, if only we had the courage. To love and to die.

2007-12-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

i wish i had the right words to say.

i could write the words to your tune.

if only we're together.

2007-12-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

its less than 2 weeks to 2008, and i feel sucky down with a cold.

its less than 2 weeks before 2007 is over, and i feel so tired.

its less than 2 weeks till we start battle all over again, and im wondering if im capable.

2 weeks Lord. repair me in 2 weeks.

we dont have a choice sometimes. we have to make things work, because theres no turning back.

no turning back.

2007-12-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

AUDACIOUS IS THE BEST YOUTH CAMP!!!

haha. 5 days just went pass like that, and i'm too tired to even remember what we did exactly, but all i can say is that it was AWESOME.

oh wells, of course there were little hiccups here and there, some issues that surfaced after self reflection.

however, on my part i felt that we did a really good job and it was a fantastic learning experience.

i really really have to say that it was my privilege to be able to work with the camp committee this year. i've personally learnt and benefited so much from these leaders. and i enjoyed working with each and everyone of them. especially the programmes committee which im part of.

Dominic, Julianne, Lavonne, Sabrina, Matthew and Jeremy. It has really been such a pleasure working with you guys. I have learnt soooo much and im glad that i got to know you guys much better through this experience. plus it was so much fun working with you guys. and i have to say here that Dominic, you did a really really good job as our IC, i really felt that you handled things really well and it was great working under your leadership. and Jul is too paranoid! hahahah. but it was because of you that we got every corner of our programmes covered. Lav, you are sooo organised!

The camp commandants did such a good job as well. hats off to you guys! and every other person is Audacious camp comm. well done!

Audacious camp has given me so much. from being organised, to learning how to plan programmes, working with new people, having fun and of course having my encounter with God. even in learning how to be a leader. i have learnt so much.

Once again, i thank Jesus for seeing us through this whole thing, for the awesome camp committee and for Your presence in camp. all we did was for Your glory and i pray we made You pleased.

(pictures till next time!)

2007-12-12T01:20:00.001+08:00

grrrr...i feel like abandoning this stupid blogspot. cos i cant load pics!!! how am i supposed to blog when all that comes out are html codes??!!! stupid blogger.

maybe i should be cool and change to LJ like those cool kids or to wordpress like the nerds. blogger sucks, seriously. and i use to be able to choose my font size and font and font colour. now i have nothing but bold and italics. grrrr. google should do smth abt it! lousy e-business.

i should get back to studying internet marketing. i hope the case study for tmr is blogger, so i have plenty to rant about!

AUDACIOUS YOUTH CAMP IS IN 2 DAYS TIME!!!! God, i am so excited!

2007-12-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

God, i cant do it without You.

leading people, investing in their lives, growing a cell, starting an outreach. Lord, i know nothing. Please, teach me to be diligent and most importantly obedient.

unleash the potential.

2007-11-20T13:36:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.

its been a looooong time! so im back from Phuket and Bintan and im charred like a roasted pig. but you wont get to see the pics yet cos im really really really busy. im just typing this post just to let everyone know im still alive and kicking.

ITS 3 MORE WEEKS!!! 3 freaking weeks till i can at least rest a little.

3 more weeks to Audacious! the best youth camp ever, which also means 3 more weeks to exams and project deadlines. grrr, i hate school! tp pui!

all in all everything is going well, maybe not so much for the projects but i guess i still can cope. sigh.

- pray for camp.

everything HAS TO go smoothly. the weather has to be fine, the campers have to have a great time and most importantly, everyone has to have an encounter with the Great One. pray pray pray. i know God will see us through.

- work work work

SCHOOL WORK! ahhhhh, God you have to see me through this as well. i dunno if i can do it. seriously. please, give me grace and brains. thanks!

- cell group

now that isaiah is not with us anymore, we will have to double up. no slack no more! arise arise everybody!

- GCAM

scared the crap out of me when Christine met us up on sunday. "take up managerial positions" HUHHHHHHHHH. meng is so scared, i could have peed in my pants. im not that good you know. die la...what if ideas dun come and what if i cant produce what is up to standard? how how??!! God, this one ONLY YOU can help. really, You're the only one whose capable of making me more creative. grrr. HELP!

well, looking at my calendar for whats left of 2007 and the beginning of 08, seems like my days slacking away are far behind. its time to rise up.

GOD! HELP ME!

2007-11-09T03:25:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered how some girls manage to look impeccable every single day? even at the end of a long tiring day,they still look great with their hair all in the right places and their make up still on. weird.

You know these girls, you'd never catch them with clothes that dont match and they always have the right bag and shoes to go with whatever outfit. They seem so talented too. They can do their hair, make-up, nails etc. and still arrive at an early lecture on time. weird.

The weirdest thing is, you dont ever remember them wearing the same things twice. and they always always seem to be able to get the lastest fashion first, spot a trend, pick the right designs and have money to maintain it.

i wonder how people like that actually function. seriously, if i have loads of money i would be able to afford good fashion and all. but waking up every morning to 1 million things you have to do before stepping out of the house is ridiculous. i for one would never ever be able to wear full make up, make effort choosing the right outfit, curl my hair and looking for the right bag to carry every single morning. with or without being able to afford such a lifestyle. i just cant imagine anyone being able to do that every morning.

okay, maybe thats why i practically live in t-shirts and jeans and look like a boy.
can someone tell me how these girls do that?!

2007-11-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

its hard not to like the Spice Girls. seriously, im buying their greatest hits album. yes, as in walk into HMV and buy the cd. Viva Forever!

LOOK! so pretty!

and why the sudden revived love for them? blame youtube. hurhurhur

2007-11-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

hi everyone!

okay, like i went to Cafe del moar(is it spelt like that?) the other day for some b&j's function. the place is so OC! hahah, it looks exactly like a pool party scene out of the OC, no joke. if my dad wins the 1 billion toto lottery or if my boyfriend happen to own like half of singapore's property by the time im 21, i think i'll hold my 21st birthday bash there!hohoho. i can dream righttttt? 3 years...3 years to find a rich boyfriend or get my father to strike toto.hmmmm....

so as i realised recently, being 18 opens many new doors in life. Suddenly, you are trusted with the responsibility to make big decisions for yourself. well, i've always been the one making decisions for myself growing up, but it just seems that being 18, your parents trust you even more. like my mom trusts me enough to let me go on holidays with my friends, with finances and even with finding a boyfriend i guess. haha, yah..if i like bring a guy home now, i think she'll welcome him with arms wide open. my dad has surprisingly trusted me with his beloved mistress ie. the car, and if i bring a guy home now.....its 50% less chance that he will chase him out with a broom. its really scary to think how much freedom i've got. well, at least i do feel more fortunate than those who dont get any. im 18. half an adult already.

on sunday, i was just having lunch and pastor daniel was talking about going to the mission field. one place that he mentioned that i really want to go is thailand. i dunno what i can offer, but i really wanna teach those young girls to read and write so they dun have to sell their bodies for a living. the last time i went to thailand, i cried my eyes out for 2 whole days because i saw girls my age working at indecent places. yucks. my heart really goes out to those people.

speaking of which, christianity is a verb.

2007-10-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

my morning started off really really bad, but i dun wanna talk about it. sigh.

i really thank God for putting great people into my life, like my sec school friends. they never ever fail to make me smile. God bless these wonderful souls. in the end, my day ended really nicely with great company. =)

well, i told jack and gang about ________, and elene said its really up to me to figure it out. figure it out i must. i wish i could just say the truth, its difficult even to _____________.

i dont want to be jules.

2007-10-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hello, new friend!

there is nothing wrong with acting like a child. =)

im still confused, do i actually __________________?

2007-10-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

Random thoughts of the day:

- friends are forever, friendships never end.
- i have no special talents.
- the perfect words never crossed my mind, cause all thats in there was you.
- guys are perverts.
- Jason Mraz is a genius.
- David Beckham is really good-looking.
- always, always be open-minded.
- i am really lazy. i admit.

i know, i think alot.

2007-10-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

sigh. you know you are unhappy when material things dont bring a smile to your face.

i feel like #@%#*#(^@)#&&^%)@! today.

I know You are strong, when i am weak.

2007-10-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

R.I.P meng ye.

today is offically the day my life comes to an end.

its the start of sem 2.2. somebody say "EW!"

i know this sem is gonna be bad because i have a packed first day. when first days are usually rather slack. sigh. bad omen, bad omen.

a conversation with Estee(my beloved year 1 classmate):

meng ye : You are strong when i am weak. says:
hey estee!
Estee Loi says:
hey meng!
meng ye : You are strong when i am weak. says:
haha..are u excited for sch?
meng ye : You are strong when i am weak. says:
im totally not
Estee Loi says:
HAHAHAH! i'm fine with school cos i love my class but i dont look forward to all the projects
Estee Loi says:
grrrrr

at least people have classmates to keep them company throughout the sucky semester. i have no friends!ahhhh....ok..maybe gabriel. sigh. i am pathetic.

i know, everyone thinks i have so many friends. the fact is i dont ok. theres only a handful that i can count on and be myself with, and most of these people arent even directly involved in my daily life ie. sec school khakis.

how?! tell me? everyone will tell me: then go make more friends la..

you think very easy meh? im not exactly the most sociable person on earth ok. blame the fact that i dont open up easily and i dont smile alot plus my qian ta face.

grrr. if only they sold good classmates/friends at toy 'r' us.

all the best meng for the rest of the sem. ben and jerry will always be there for you.

2007-10-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

www.keep377a.com

like all of us will know, unless you live in a cave, Singapore is now in a crisis of homos taking over the world. Lets stop them and sign this petition to help our country retain penal code 377a.

fyi, 377a is against homosexualism.

personally, i have nothing against gays. i just dun agree with their lifestyles.

the righteous must always win.

2007-10-18T02:33:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO GO TO THE ZOO!

holidays are over and i havent been to THE ZOO! grrrrr.

I NEED TO GO TO THE ZOO!
SOMEBODY PLEASE GO WITH ME TO THE ZOO!!! if not i'll just go alone. all i want is to look at lions, elephants, tigers and take picture with Ah Meng. very demanding meh?

grrrrr. i dont care. i will go to the zoo even if school starts.

ohh..and a last look at polar bears before we kill them.

Do You Know? polar bears are gonna be extinct a 100 years from now, and this time could be shortened if we dont start doing a little more for our environment. i know Jesus is coming back, but what if He dont come back until 200 years later? i still want my kids to know how a polar bear looks like leh, and i dont want my family fortune that my kids will get to go to buying oxygen. i believe God made men lord over this planet so we can take care of it for Him, its our responsibility. im sure you guys dont take the gifts that God gave you lightly right..

Reduce. Reuse. Recycle. not very hard what...just a bit more effort.

use less plastic bags, theres a reason why they make bags bigger nowadays.

on the air-con at 25 degrees, not too hot, not too cold and save electricity.

dont stand in front of your fridge hoping that food will pop out. for every minute the door is open, (ALOT) of energy/CFC/whatever is wasted/given out.

use brain la. God made it so we can use them. like the water you use to wash clothes can be used to wash the toilet or your smelly shoes right?

participate in annual "Plant-a-tree" days in your community. if not just go the corridor and plant money plant la...good for feng shui also.

STOP EATING SHARK FIN. i've stopped like 5 years ago. besides, its NOT HEALTHY AT ALL. it has really high mercury content. eat some more la..die of poisening than u know. sharks are important for the food chain. and that car wash at the bottom of the sea(shark tales). hahahah

there are alot more you and i can do. even though its just a small part, but we are still helping. imagine if these little habits spreads on to become a culture, the impact will be great.

2007-10-17T02:35:00.000+08:00

maybe one day i'll be like this:

be like those who cannot be bothered to have worries.

be like those who can leave everything behind.

just like those who can pack their bags and disappear for the next 3 months.

just maybe one day...i'll be like them.

i'll fly to India to feed the poor when i feel too rich.

go to Europe to look at statues when i feel too dead.

try to hunt celebrities down in Hollywood when i feel the world looks too perfect.

trek Sahara when everybody feels too cold to go near.

conquer mountains in Switzerland when problems seemed insurmountable.

leave reality when i feel too grown up at Disneyland.

i will do this all alone.

there is no reason to why i dont like being a kid, cos i love being one.

2007-10-14T00:17:00.000+08:00

not much to update or yak about really. just felt like i need to fill this space.

as you will know, i've been watching alot of The O.C recently. Somehow, strangely, this drama i see on screen have been transforming into real life situations. (not the oc kind of drama, but drama-drama u know?). Its weird just weird. oh, please dun get kpo and start thinking i may have a lover somewhere, because im becoming a nun.

hahahhaha. i kid, i kid. actually, im half serious.

annnnyyyyywaaaayyy. have you people felt uncool with certain people around? like you cant fufil your cool potential with these people around, cause somehow you feel that they are cooler than you? get what i mean? like you just cant come out with your usual funny jokes with these people around, cos you feel like their jokes will always be funnier. ahhh...never mind. im a weirdo.

and school is starting soon. major BOO. yucks. I HATE SCHOOL. lets take a look at my calendar in the near future.

Next Week events worth looking forward to:
Thursday - ZOO????? lions here i come!!
Saturday - Christine & Rudy's wedding. hopefully the dress i ask grans to make will turn out nice.

Following Week:
SCHOOL(SUCKS)

i feel my life is coming to an end whenever i think of a new school semester. seriously, i have NO friends in school. not that im an outcast or anything, its just that those people are not those you can clique with or bother to keep in contact with. i just feel like we dun have anything in common. grrr, i shudder at the thought of school.

p/s: my favourite movie is The Lion King. King Mufasa is my hero and he is so handsome.

2007-10-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

WHY? WHY?! OH WHY???!!!!

WHY ISNT THE iTUNES STORE AVAILABLE IN SINGAPORE????!!!!

SOMEBODY PLEASE EXPLAIN.

PLEASE YOU ITUNES PEOPLE...PLEASE COME TO SINGAPORE WILL YOU???

sigh...life is miserable when you have to download bitorrent files(which loads at turtle back speed), and try to find interesting podcasts which are free. grrr.

its disheartening to see your fav tv shows already on sale on itunes and you cant get your hands on it. booooooooo. its family guy and prison break ya'll!

oh..anyway, good news is i've found a place where i can watch PB3 without having to dl or pay. ahhaahah. good for me.

but i still want the itunes store. dun apple know that many people own ipods in singapore?

well, alright. most only own a nano(which cannot view videos).

PEOPLE! get a classic ipod with vid functions!!! so itunes will finally come to singapore. grrrrrrrrrrrrr

2007-10-03T23:03:00.001+08:00

ignore them emo posts yesterday. everyone has their down days right?

prettiest songs of the moment in my ipod.

1. Who Needs Shelter - Jason Mraz

Good day sunlight
I'd like to say how truly bright you are
You don't know me, but I know you
You're my favourite star

2. Always on Your Side - Sheryl Crow ft. Sting

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

3. Hey There Delilah

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

4. Just So You Know - Jesse McCartney

It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away

sigh. i can melt listening to these songs. anyway, i rented The OC, so im gonna watch it now! ahhahah. SETH COHEN!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

go away. go away. go away.

maybe you should just be honest with yourself and face the stupid problem upfront.

meng. u are useless, get back on your feet.idiot.

the heart and mind is in a mess now. )&)@(&)$&^)@&)(@&*#)&@$)&@$)(&_)$@)(&@*

2007-10-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

sighhhh. there came a point when even my besties(ben&jerry) couldnt help me anymore.

you'll get over these childish thoughts. you'll get over it.

in the meantime, you just need to look to other things. yah, other more important things.

grrrrrrrrrrr. i hate feeling emo.

2007-09-28T04:56:00.000+08:00

question of the day: is downloading from a bittorrent site illegal? somebody pls answer.

this takes me to the topic of the day. legal & illegal downloading of creative material (ie. music, movies, pictures etc)

Nic and i had this discussion the other day about downloading.

the geeze of the conversation was...
(had a little talk abt music)
Nic: downloading illegally is wrong
Meng:yah..its wrong. but the authorities should make legal downloading as accessible as illegal ones in order to stop this unintentional crime! if not people will just continue downloading illegally.

yes people. ARENT WE ALL FRUSTRATED that we cant find sites to download music legally? ok. there are sites that allows us singaporeans to download legally, but i dont know any of them! how come the authorities only tell us that illegal downloading is wrong but nv tell us where to download legally????? HUH?????!!!! grrrr

and its a sad fact that itunes store dun sell music to us singaporeans. booooo to you. even though renown blogger mr brown found a way to buy music(read his blog to find out more). that site is not even targeted at singaporeans! what. singapore has a small market means we have to suffer this artistic deprivation??!!

and to the authorities. you know why people download illegally? because they cant find outlets to download legally. given a choice, i would rather be a law abiding citizen than being caught for simply owning a piece of music without licence.

i have confidence, that if legal downloading is made more convenient that illegal ones, this illegal downloading activities will lose popularity. becos most people dun want to get into trouble, especially with the law.

as anyone with intelligence would do. i will suggest a few ways to help the situation. i know nobody reads this blog other than my frens, but hey, i can make my opinion heard right.

1. get itunes to sell to us. if not, set up a site where we can buy music and advertise!!! pls...pls...at the same time make sure there is quality. i know most of us singaporeans listen to Asian music, but please dun neglect us suedo westerners.

2. dun only limit it to people with credit cards. its singapore dude, we can work in ways like buying "points" or "online cash" at your nearby 7-11. i know its a little more hard work, but most people who download stuff are students who DONT HAVE and CANNOT OWN credit cards. i know about the citibank offer. well, if thats the way you want it to work, that is get a citibank card before you have 1 song on your mp3. let it be. and i dont think posb kids saving acct campaign will work because giving kids a credit card means asking them to spend without thinking. plus, if the downloading site wants to lose out on this market with the most potential. go ahead.

3. if the above 2 suggestions are impossible or have already been worked out. will somebody kindly inform the public the solutions of our downloading woes? like i hear no news about any downloading sites where we can buy our music/movies from. use the old school method. ADVERTISE! not very hard what..

if i have been living in a cave up in a mountain called pasir ris all this while, and you intelligent beings have already discovered legal downloading sites(other than multiply), for the sake of my poor soul. please tell me what these sites are. thank you very much!

2007-09-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

yes. im bored. thats why i've been blogging everyday.

holidays are supposed to be like that anyway. =) but i figured i'll have to make a list of things im supposed to do and announce it to the whole world if not i'll never ever get down to do them.

1. CLEAN MY ROOM! you guys have nooooo idea how messy my room is. by calling it a warzone is already an understatement. seriously. im the sort of person who survives in a systematic chaos. even though rooms like a complete junk yard, i nv lose things. sure some of you can identify with that. looking at the state of my room now, i believe i have 1 tonne of garbage to throw out.

2. remember to save up. yes, i always forget to put the money into my savings acct and end up spending all of it. grrrrr. baaaaaaaaaaaad habit.

3. pester the living daylights out of my parents for what they promised me. namely, the stupid supp card and money for a driver's lisence. being the good kid i am, i dun usually ask them for stuff. really. the above things are just waaaaay overdue. like i NEED a drivers lisence NOW OK!

4. clean my room. yes, the reason why im feeling so lost and disorganised is because of this sty im living in. i chan meng ye therefore, in the audience and witness of those who read this internet page that i will dedicate an entire day to organising and cleaning the above mentioned venue (my room). grrrr

clean your room, clean your room, clean your room. and i want to watch The OC all over again. The OC, The OC, The OC.

2007-09-26T03:34:00.000+08:00

too cool la...seriously. now i know why Darlene Zschech is the face of Hillsong.

new found hobby of the moment: watch Darlene Zschech on Hillsong vids.

2007-09-25T06:13:00.000+08:00

Check out this video: Big Japan - Eraser

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unlike me to post some indie crap, but its nice!!! love the guitar parts and the drums not half bad! heheh. just giving my totally no music background opinion. plus point is adam brody is on the drums!! and whats down is that i really cant hear what the vocalist is singing. perhaps all indie music are like that? ok. no. but i really cant hear you dude! invest in a better recording system/ mic whatever.

current fan girl mode: 9/10.

btw, its Eraser by Big Japan.

2007-09-25T05:09:00.000+08:00

www.jasonmraz.com

given the chance, i would marry him over elvin ng. this guy is soooo witty, cute and funny. doesnt matter that his not even half as good looking as elvin. i'll marry a guy that can make me laugh anytime. go read his blog really, his musings make you laugh, ponder and feel. even though he gets kinda abstract sometimes, but its good. GO READ IT NOW!

hahaha. meng is officially a Jason Mraz fan now. no longer just a person who likes his songs.

ohhh...and if you like him, but not so much into music. check out adam brody (yah, that seth cohen guy from the OC). they have exactly the same personality. brody is probably louder and more crude, but they are as funny and cute. not to mention mr brody is so much more better looking. hahah.

given a choice to marry mraz or brody? i'll have brody. cos im more into acting and his in a band as well.

MRAZ.

BRODY.

thank you for once again bearing with my celebrity crush nonsense.

2007-09-20T03:33:00.000+08:00

cant slp. decided to post some pics for you to feast your eyes on. heheh

RuiEn. can you see why i think shes the hottest artist singapore has ever had since zoe tay? she is sooooooo cool.

Lilian and me. this is where you find real top model material. heheheh. =P

this pic is way too cool. taken at the not-so-cool-now garden that my class use to take care of. hahahaha, "monsoon-apple" days

who says you need a huge SLR, pro photoraphy skills and exotic venues to be able to take pretty pictures? this is taken from the window of my study with the lousy 5 mega pix digicam at home. all you need is to snap at the right place at the right time.

hahahah. cute photo. im so glad the old hair is gone.

stop drooling guys! i know... we all look so pretty right? love this pic.

i have the greatest people on earth in my family. okay, not really. but i still love them!

Adam Brody. the guy i want to marry! <3

moments with the bestie, we've seriously known each other for the longest time. haha. love you sam!

Hai Sing days. man, if only i had a time machine. those days were so much fun.

as everyone else does on blogger. you HAVE TO post a picture of yourself only. hahahah.

love y'all! tata!

2007-09-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

this week is a busy week for meng.

Sunday : helped out at The Olives for the first time. kinda cool plus everyone there is so nice and friendly. hahah, helping out again on Thurs, looking forward to it. Had lunch with Nam after church as usual and went home to sleep for 6 hours after that. PIG.

Monday: woke up at 1pm (becos i slept at 5am the night before). went to meet acg, abg & omg to surprise Mrs Wan at Hai Sing. pics below. i can sooooo tell that the other teachers are so jealous. haha, where to find such sweet students that will still surprise you after graduating for 2 yrs?

chalet after that. sorry only 2 pics. its always good to see everyone(4e5'05) after so long and catch up with each other. the guys are funny as usual. stayover to hear the guys talk about 11 day romances and watch them play bridge + trying to teach Mrs Wan the game. hahah, tried very very hard to fall asleep on the same bed as warren. if you know how small the bed is and how big warren is, its kind of a big feat. hahaha no offence warry, still think you are very man. heh and with jack playing the guitar at 5 am. seriously.

Tues: went straight to work at 1030am after sleeping for less than 3 hrs. its a miracle! went home changed and than to meet Nam at vivo. its a wonder, i only got home at 12 am. watched some more Family Guy on youtube and slept at 4 am. hahahahah

Wed: woke up at 1pm again and went shopping with mummy cos its her birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! heheh. Pull & Bear is my new found love and Forever 21 is getting so ugly. yucks. found out that Bakerzin has fantastic tea time offers. yay, more goodfood + hangout places.

One Hour into Thursday: here i am typing mindlessly about what i did for the last 3 days. dont ask me why but i just felt like the whole world needed to know. =)

the rest of thurs: help out some more at The Olives and work @ Ben & Jerry's.
Fri: meet Tiff and pre-Ignite conference.
weekend: cell & church as usual.

this should be the busiest week of my hols. haha, im just gonna rot for the rest of the time.

OH YAH!! and Nam if you are reading this. RMB TO GET 1408! and i saw this really nice murse at fred perry. got discount now leh..

2007-09-14T02:49:00.000+08:00

went shopping today!!!

still quite bumped about the fact that i spent waaaayy too much on just 3 items, and now i have to live on fresh air and sunshine for the rest of the month.

[Please help out needy students by donating to the Meng Needs to Eat Fund]

it was worth it nonetheless! =)

because i believe in buying things as an investment. i wont mind buy a good pair of fitting jeans with material that lasts, and pay 200 bucks for it. its gonna worth my money because firstly, good material and cutting dun come cheap and the extra you pay will definitely last you the mileage. plus, you can probably wear this pair of jeans for more than 2 years.

Shopping is just like investing in property or shares. You have to learn to see its returns and make the correct judgements. Just that fashion pieces are worth your coming out with the extra moolah, rather than shares and property having you snatch the best deals.

okay, why am i tell you about my shopping habits? moving on....

i have to go shopping some more. 3 pieces is not enough!

- shoes
- shirts
- accessories
- pants? maybe

noooww... anyone wants to donate to the Meng Need Money To Shop Fund? =D

i love fashion... and shopping! haahah

2007-09-10T01:13:00.001+08:00

Today Pastor Lip Yong spoke about hearing from God and he gave an alter call that wants us to keep still and listen intently to the voice of the Lord.

this is what i heard.

The Lord is the Sovereign One, The King of Majesty, Glorious One, Alpha and Omega, Beginning and the End, the Creator of all things.

Of course we know that God is all of the above, we sing songs about it, we pray using those names and we address God by those names.

and thats when i realise, do i really know the meaning of those names?

Honestly, i doubt i do.

When have i acknowledge His sovereignty in times of trouble? When have i treated Him like He is the King of Majesty with the works of my life? When have i really seen His glory? When do i have the understanding that He has no beginning and no end and that He created every single thing in the universe, that He is just God and everything revolves around Him, that including my pathetic struggles and all the universe?

its so easy to just say in words, but will my mind ever conceive of who God really is? i doubt so.

God, You messed me up once again. You've made me understand why my life is in Your mighty hands.

2007-09-06T15:40:00.000+08:00

I like The Beatles!

and Paul is cute, he still rocks after 40 years.

everybody's in an old-school mood.

thats when i love you

2007-09-04T14:01:00.001+08:00

yes, i love you anyway

2007-09-04T13:41:00.000+08:00

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

this is a song.....which i didnt write! hahaha, anyway its just a really saccharine'd, sappy, gives-you-goosebumps and aww-worthy love song. haha

2007-09-03T02:44:00.001+08:00

christianity, as i've recently realise is all about what we do, not what we know.

seems like the greatest miracles happen to those who know not much, but practice what they know. i guess its just the simple things we do that really makes an impact.

however its these simple things that really, we christians refuse to do, like sacrificing a little of our time and personal space.

as i mature as a christian, i found that i've already know what i need to know for now. there isnt anymore bible studies to attend, anymore services to go so i can be a better christian. but there is more work i can do for the kingdom of God.

at this level, whats the next step i can take to challenge myself? what more can i do for God?

its about time to start working towards the call and promises He has given you.

no more games, no more play. its about my Father's business now.

2007-08-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

yes! finally MBS is over and done. rot and die for the rest of the hols.

well, i've been pondering for abit. what do i want for the next 18 years of my life?

its cliche and we say this every week in church but, really...

Jesus i want You to be the centre of it all. You should be my strong pillar, my Reason, my Joy, my Hope and my everything. most of all, let Your will be done in my life.

my Lord and Savior

2007-08-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

ok. happy birthday to me. my first reaction when the clock struck 12mn was :"crap, im 18!"

yeah..u heard that right, crap. honestly, i would rather stay a kid.

anyhow, i would like to thank everyone who wished me happy birthday and special thanks to my mom who gave birth to me on this day and that few ppl whose paying $12.50 each for my very special surprise.hahahah gam sia ar.

so..here are a few pics for u ppl to look at.

my very first bday! look at how big the cake is and how cute i was. hahah, yes ppl. i was once cute. =)

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this is jeanette on the right and me on the left. dont we all look so pretty in pink?hehe. shes my bestie in kindergarten. so happy birthday to you Jean! =D

my cake this year. havent had the cake cos it looks kinda gross(jelly on top with fruits and cream covered stuff with almond flakes below), but decided to have some fun with the candles.

yah..at least i can go get a driver's lisence now. anyone want to donate a SLK? hahah

2007-08-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

maybe i ______________.

then again, its _______________.

perhaps we could.

and friend, i love you.

2007-08-23T16:58:00.000+08:00

bored. i'll do one of these surveys people have on friendster.

1.The song you've been most singing to
yourself recently?
- any song thats on my ipod?

2. What do you currently want right
now?
- read the previous post.

3. What did you do today?
- nothing.

4. Are you hungry? What would you like?
- nope, but i would love a glass of OJ

5. What have you been thinking about
most today?
- how to occupy myself for the rest of the day? haha, yes i am that bored

6. Do you ever just sit outside and
watch the stars?
- yeah, once or twice in my 18 years

7. What is your current annoyance?
- things not arriving when they are supposed to have arrived 3 days ago, and my bday not coming soon enough.

8. Do you want a new cell phone?
- yeah, if someone would buy me one.

9. Are you waiting for someone right
now?
- sort of, waiting for nic to call so i can pass him his notes.

10. Name one thing you're looking
forward to this week?
- ehhhh..church? ahhaha. as always

11. Can you make friends easily?
- nope, not really

12. What would you do if your friend
turned gay?
- see him on tuesday nights in church

13. Do you plan out what you wear the
day before you wear it?
- not usually unless its a really big day.

14. What is life to you?
- hitting the mark

15. Have you ever fallen for your best
friend?
- never had a guy for best friend.

16. If you had a chance to save
someone significant to you, would you?
- of cos

17. How many times do you eat each day?
- 2-3 times?

18. How do you cheer someone up?
- talk rubbish and act silly hoping that he will find it funny, or buy him some B&J's =)

19. Have you slept?
- loads thanks.

20. Is it easier for you to fall asleep
or to be woken ?
- fall asleep. DUH

21. Think of one person, stick with
it. you don't have to say their name.
Would you pick them up alone 100 miles
away if it was your birthday?
- yeah..i probably will. im a good friend.

22. Have your best friends ever hurt
your feelings?
- definitely, things like that happen. we just have to learn.

23. Give two reasons why you get
distracted in class.
- too tired to listen. have better things to think abt.

24. Do you think its funny when people
get hurt?
- eh. NO. unless its for some really lame reasons.

25. If you had to guess, how do you
think you're gonna turn out in life?
- probably turn out pretty well? i'll be happily married, have kids and go for high tea all day with my friends in my golden years.

2007-08-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

my stomach is bloated like a ball now. becos i just gobbled down an entire chicken foldover meal + apple pie by myself. good job for growing fatter.

just a random thought: what will be your 3 wishes if legendary fairy godmother came and ask to grant you?

mine would be:

1. 4 million dollars. 1 million for me, 1 million for mom, 1 million for dad and the next for my grandparents.

what would i do with the million? use to pay for car maintainence(as u will read below) go shopping and live the rest of my life comfortably without having to worry if there's food on the table to feed ah boy and ah girl.

2. a car all to myself in the exact model and colour and functions i want. yes, for all the convenience in the world. now i can go to changi beach and watch the stars.

3. a new house. im quite happy living in my current house actually, minus the fact that its really old, the toilet dun work quite well anymore, the decor of my room suck becos my parents picked it out for me when i was 6 and the furniture is really ugly and and, its incovenient to go anywhere other than ikea(my fav place in pasir ris)

in case you are wondering why didnt i ask for the salvation of my frens and family? becos fairy godmother cant save them, only Jesus can. =)

life would be close to perfect if i had the above things.

2007-08-17T01:34:00.001+08:00

1. met a really nice bus driver today. thanks Johnson (who drives feeder bus service 359) for all that trouble! if only all bus captains were this nice. haha.

2. went to cut my hair today. at least i look different now, its kinda in an asymmetrical shape with red highlights. i love the highlights even though i thought the colour could be more obvious. heh.

3. now i have to send my faulty camera for repair. allll theee waayyyy to BUKIT MERAH! i dun even know how to get there. grrrrrrr. technology and all its downfalls.

4. i have to make a trip to haji lane/arab street to chill!!! i love that place, its so pretty! hang out gang!! lets GO! muahahaha

5. its been forever since i last went to the zoo. i want to go to the ZOO! i'll persuade someone to go with me.

6. tailor more clothes.

7. shop some more.

2007-08-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

life's mundane when you have early hols and all your other frens are still schooling. BUT! whose complaining? hahaha

well, it just hit me today that my future isnt as well planned out as i thought it was. i've always knew what im gonna do with my life, but suddenly now i dont.

Short term goal.

Go to bible school after poly. question is : should i continue my education and go to university? it may sound like a no brainer, of cos i should go to uni, havent i always wanted to get a degree? however im starting to think, what if my results arent good enough? im just a mediocre student. what if tution fees cost too much? im not born in a silver spoon.

Long term goal.

Go into full-time ministry. that is where im called. how, when, where & what is still unknown. the question pops up again. work for church after poly? or work first? if its the first, then i need not worry at all. if its the latter, that means i need to get a degree and the above mentioned worries will come into relevance again. grrrrr. life is all about hard decisions.

Super short term goal.

since i dun have much to do at the moment, i will indulge myself in reading good books, making handicrafts and learning how to sew. i may not look like it, but im really a homebody at heart. =)

2007-08-14T01:15:00.000+08:00

well, im just gonna blog about random things again.

1. i think school is a waste of time.

yes yes. we all know how important our education is. i used to enjoy school when there was fabulous company ie. sec sch, but since im not really close to my poly classmates, i cant say the same. urg, dont we all just hate going to school having to face all the requirements, ridiculous workload, annoying people, early mornings etc etc etc.

2. there is never-ending work to do.

not that im complaining, but theres always work to do for church! which is a good problem to have. haha, means we're growing and moving forward. yes, there is never ending work in church, especially this year. but i love it!

3. its time to learn something new.

it's been quite sometime since i last tried something new. the newest something that i tried was probably acting, and thats quite sometime ago. to let you in on a secret, i've been trying to learn how to sing properly.haha, i know i dont have a fantastic voice but its really my dream to lead worship! oh no. i've just let it all out. anyway, i've been thinking of learning the guitar and trying my hands on leading worship in cell. the guitar part would have to come later since im not exactly musically inclined and theres so much more work to be done on my singing. well, let's just see where my "sudden interest in music" will lead, since its not really my calling. hahahaha

4. priority.

guess i'm just disorganised. first things need to come first. like doing work instead of surfing the net and spending time on ministry instead of giving in to laziness. need to rise up ah meng. i need to spend more time with my grandparents too, i'm afraid i dont have much left with them.

sigh sigh sigh. if only i could start the year all over again, i would be so much more organised. just didnt expect this year to be so hectic. and school sucks

i'll stop the world to melt with you.

2007-08-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

so the high-ness did not last for 3 days. hahah. but im really full now, just came back from supper.

well, we took a cab home after supper and the taxi uncle happen to ask us if we were christians.

if you're expecting that we superheros christians did another radical move and shared the gospel, the uncle got saved and fell to the ground. you are gonna be disappointed.

no, we did not share the gospel. we merely said :"yes, we're christians, all of us." and kept quiet for the rest of the journey.

i felt like such a loser after i got home. there were 4 christians and one taxi uncle! alamak..if only i had the courage to just open my mouth to ask :"so uncle, are you christian too?"

now what if the uncle get into a car accident after he dropped me off? ahhahah..okok, stop trying to make myself feel bad. but seriously, what if this was his last chance?

now i finally realise that evangelism is not an event, its a lifestyle. it means that you share the gospel anywhere, anytime with everyone. sigh.

i still feel like $#@&*#*($^$( for not sharing the gospel with the uncle.

2007-08-09T03:49:00.001+08:00

YES!

it's almost 4am and i cant slp!!!! why oh why?!

i'm feeling too high to sleep. i hope this highness wont go away for 3 days! ahhahah.

i was blog reading and i saw my sch's mass comm students do lip dub for a certain song. i feel like i can do it too! like NOW! hahahaha

okok! choose a song choose a song!

ok..nobody's responding. becos im the only one awake at this hour. hahaha

IM CRAZY!! ohhhh! the song! YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY! I JUST CANT SLEEP! IM SO EXCITED IM IN TOO DEEP! ahhahahaha britney spears. i think those are the words. so describe how i feel now

anyway, im really excited! like REALLY EXCITED! i have no idea why. maybe cos tmr's gonna be another fun day. and maybe becos fri's my last paper dude!!! YES last paper!!

hohohohohohoh. i cant sleeeeeepppppp and i feel like dancing. hahaha, fyi, i can dance all day at home. i think i just need to do so now to let off some energy. YES. DANCE NOW!

2007-08-09T02:39:00.000+08:00

okay, since i have got quite an exciting day. i shall blog about it.

woke up in the morn and ran to sch as usual. yah...i run like 7km everyday to get to sch. keeps me trim & fit. felt a little under the weather and was 10 mins later than my usual timing. so was 10 mins late for class as a result.

sat in class and did evaluation forms and listened to Mrs Wu talk about clothes and fashion. fashion on how marketing students should differentiate ourselves from HTM kids. yah man..i kinda need her to teach me fashion. zzzz.. i wasnt listening half the time, the other half the time was spent thinking if i should take the longer route to school when my lessons are later in the day. i want to keep me more trim and more fit!

after class, went home slacked and came out to meet lebobo. so..on the way there i bumped into many ppl. ok..not many. just KK and Donovan. haha. that is not the important point. the point is, i went to meet lebobo. went to city hall then to bugis than to orchard. yeah...i know, we're kinda free people. call us if u wanna hang out! yes no kidding, please do!

so we went around paragon trying to look for something. which i will not mention.

NOW!! here comes the main main main main point. i saw something. something at Banana Republic. I AM SO GONNA GET IT!!!! my 139 in size 0. oh the lurveee.

next point is...we went to NYDC for mudpies. MUDPIE!!!!!!!!!!! ARH!!!!!!!! YUM DE RUM DUM DUM! i need more mudpiessssssssss

and the next point is, im gonna change my style. im gonna cut my hair. yes im gonna cut my hair. becos i dun like to have the same hair style as the girl sitting next to me on the mrt. grrr, and im gonna buy new clothes, clothes that girls cant get at bugis street. grrrrrrr

and and the next point is we met 11 other people at CS for Rush Hour 3 which by the way made me laughed so hard my cheeks are having cramps. HAHAHAHA! get what i mean?

and and and Prison Break is coming out in Sept in the States!!!!!!!! YES YES YES!!!!

and and and and TMR IS NATIONAL DAY!!!!!! MAJULAH SINGAPURA!! MAJULAH SINGAPURA!!! I LOVE SINGAPORE!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

ok..this post doesnt make any sense. nvm its the time of the night. i'll post some pics up soon!

love y'all!

2007-08-03T01:05:00.000+08:00

figured i shouldnt burden my friends with family matters.

sigh. i love my friends!

2007-07-30T14:19:00.001+08:00

the blog is dying. time for new entry.

admist all the action that has been going on, im all bright and cheery. cos life's been good with Wonka bars around. yummy!

besides the magic chocolate, projects have half officially ended, leaving only the presentation part to be done. so...exams the next week and after that ah mengs a free person!

holidays holidays...wont you hurry here!

2007-07-26T01:59:00.000+08:00

this is so stupid.

but meng feels kinda sad.

sigh.

okay, let's see where Jesus will bring me.

i know, i still feel lousy.

=(

2007-07-20T02:15:00.000+08:00

well, just a revelation.

if you want to be good at something, you have to live, breathe, sleep, eat, drink it. that is how successful people become successful, they are so consumed with their purpose and vision.

depending on what you want to succeed in, be consumed in it.

easier said then done though.

2007-07-17T01:01:00.000+08:00

i want to feel what Jesus feel when He sees the multitudes.

i want the fire of the Holy Spirit to be upon me always.

i want to be able to to always act on His word.

i want to be desperate for revival.

i want to be uncomfortable.

i want to rock the boat.

Lord, this is my prayer.

Jesus is the answer for the world today

2007-07-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO JACK ONG!

yes, my friend is in the finals of teenage icon and he appeared on teenage magazine. how cool.

to Jack: ah meng is all the way behind you!

anyway, today i feel was a breakthrough in Generations youth service. people were taking up seats in the fourth tier! and the empty spaces between the zones were filled up! somebody praise Jesus! haha. but somehow i feel a stronger opposition from the enemy ( or am i being paranoid?) i guess its a sign that revival is coming. i know it is.

and this is to gen 5.1 -

hey guys/girls,

haha..if anyone of you happen to be reading; I TELL YOU TO BE ENCOURAGED! well, nobody said it was easy and nobody said we're always gonna win. i know poor you guys are all so tired and drained but be of good cheer k. the Lord is with us.

even when Peter stepped out of the boat to walk on water, indeed he walked at first, but still fell in the end. fast forward to Acts, isnt Peter the rock that Jesus built His church on? lets be like Peter, lets pick ourselves up and move forward.

so guys, like what i shared after service today, everything lies in your hands. let us not be comfortable, we must rock the boat! be excited, happy and encouraged. for the joy of the Lord is our strength and His grace is always sufficient for us.

till sat, be prayerful! and i love you all!

.Jesus i live to see Your kingdom come.

2007-07-15T00:46:00.000+08:00

Deal or No Deal was awesome.

yup, the event went smoothly, everything was excellent and the best thing?

Jesus was with us all the way and of cos there were many salvations.

After today i have a feeling that revival is coming very SOON.

So thank YOU JESUS! Your Holy Spirit was with us all they way even when we were just preparing for the event. we're doing all these because we want to see You high and lifted up!

Glory Glory King Jesus!

2007-07-11T03:08:00.000+08:00

well, just felt like doing this and i hope ppl will respond! haha

i know this question is kinda cliche but just answer ok.

what superhuman power would you want to possess and what do you want to do with it?

well, im just interested to know ppl's answer. reply on my multiply, your individual blogs (but do tag me your url ) or simply on my tagboard! hahha. i'll reply once i have enough time to write a full length entry.

ohh ohh..and to all christians, the holy spirit power answer is not accepted. hahahha. think of smth more creative la...

till i post again, happy pondering and God bless!

2007-07-04T00:06:00.001+08:00

14th of July is coming.it's gonna be Generations 4+5's big day.

amist of all the preparation work for the event I've definitely learnt alot.

1. Patience
People can really be very irresponsible and irritating. i need to learn to love them.

2. Choose your team.
Surround yourself with wise and capable ppl, that is how you will grow. its a blibical principle.

3. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.
Planning is crucial, i never thought detailed planning, scheduling and organising was so important. or perhaps i tend to overlook details. details details details...ever the so important.

4. Be organised.
I really need to be more organised. List everything in chronological order, numerical order, alphabetical order, got what order than what order la. BE IN ORDER!

5. Unity
Unity brings about everything you need, from initiative to fun. everything. all you need is a group of ppl who can get along.

6. Aim for perfection
not that i dont aim for the best but i realise people around you need to have the same vision as well. achievement has the word team in it.

7. You cant do it alone
No matter how capable or productive one is, there is no way one person can finish all the work without help.

i have learnt so much from this experience. There is no way words can do justice to how much i have gained.

"a thousand times i've fail still Your mercy remains. should i stumble again im caught in Your grace."

2007-06-28T13:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Adin Barnabas!!!

ok...i know lousy pic. and ignore lebobo please.

anyway, you are called to be a firebrand and to lead a life so radical for our Lord Jesus Christ. so i pray you will continue to shine and work your way to what He has called you to be.

love,
Meng Ye

2007-06-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

OK. 2 things to announce today.

firstly...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR RUDY INDRALI! *throws confetti all around* heh. all the best in everything you do and get married soon! haha

ok, next..

my dear friend, Jack Ong Shi Jie has entered into the semi-finals of Teenage Icon!!!CONGRATS CONGRATS! haha. anyway, before he gets famous hurry to give him your support next sunday ok! GO JACK!

2007-06-19T07:45:00.000+08:00

arg! cant take it. the song Signal Fire just keeps spinning in my head!

*you are my signal fire.....* arhhhhh. get out get out get out already!

ok. if you are wondering why im blogging at such ungodly hours(7:46 am!) i just came back from Jack's place. hahah. not the restaurant, but my friend, Jack's place. yup. a spontaneous stay over right after a very fulfilling 85 dinner with ACG, OMG and one member of ABG(sam). haha.

in case you are wondering. those are my sec school frens. class of 4e5'05. =)

and as usual. we reminisced about all the stupid stuff we have done back in Hai Sing. throwing books down 4 storeys, running on rooftops, having a pantry in the classroom, trying to run from the discipline master ( i was a prefect fyi. i helped to hide the guys) hahahah. so stupid la. and we actually thought of doing something even stupider.

that is wearing our school u again and pretending we're students. lol. how fun would that be! then reality had to hit us. we just changed principal! crap. no fun for us already. BOO

hahah. so funny la. ok. anyway....

i was on the bus home just now and i saw commuters. like office people commuters. and i noticed something, only 1 out of 10 ppl look like they actually look forward to the day ahead. so i thought to myself, i dun wanna grow up like that! i want to live everyday with drive and purpose like im doing now. i want everyday of my life to be exciting and fun-filled. i guess many of those comes from attitude, which will in turn affect my surroundings. so i pray Lord, help me live everyday like that! since i'm pretty sure im gonna go into full-time ministry. haha.

and while at Jack's place, it suddenly hit me (again) that my sec school friends, saved or unsaved dun understand why im so active in church and why im so "holy". and i wonder what they're gonna say when i tell them that im going to be..lets say, a pastor, or a missionary going to some ulu pandan country. arggg, and these ppl are like my bestest friends in the world! seems like im predicting a problem im gonna face. my answer now will be just do what the Lord has purposed me to and in time to come, i pray my answer will be just the same.

and once again thank You, Jesus. for opening doors in my life. You are my God, my King, my Savior and my bestest bestest bestestestetststetet best Friend. i love you!

p/s: i cant stand homos. yikes. how can u actually like somebody of the same gender?! gross.

2007-06-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

ARIGHTY. BACK FROM CHURCH CAMP!

was definitely a 200 bucks well spent. haha. i had soooooo much fun bonding and fellowshiping with everybody. just too bad i didnt get to hang out with some ppl. boo.

the best part of the camp was of course receiving an affirmation from the Lord and as well as refreshing my vision and purpose for my calling. Also the prophetic words were indeed powerful.

First of all, i must admit that i was really jaded before i went to camp. so much work, so little time and too much pressure. God really refreshed my spirit in this camp and renewed my passion for learning His word and He has made my calling even clearer to me. so now im all charged and ready to win the world! ahahahah

God is great!

so now for the pictures.

We love taking pictures in the toilet.
the people who loves to play Taboo!Happy Meal gang @ KLCCDonovan & me

Mr Indrali's famous chocolate cake. lol.

With my handsome youth pastor - Pastor Daniel. =)my beloved but qian ta zone leader. Isaiah. Mr Indrali once again, insisting he is the "Player of The Game"Jing Wei!!!! the last days before he loses his hair. =( serve our country well friend!Justin & me! haha..most of you will know him as Kelvin.

RJ. RJ.
Me: "why guys like girls to wear skirt?"

RJ: "cos HOT!"

Me:"hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha"

Juliana caught on camera. literally. hahah

pillow-fighting. hahahah. unglam(x10000000000000000000000)

Andrew Yeo and Daphne with me. hehehe.

Pastor Yang says to build an alter out of your TV rack. i did so.

Bus companions. LeBoBo & SpongeBob.

Generations 5 @ Cornerstone Family Camp 2007.

2007-06-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

i feel this sense of inadequacy. i feel inadequate all the time, always thinking that im not ever good enough and always not there yet. recently i found out many feel the same way as i do.

but why?

why do we feel lousy after every single job not so well done? when we feel we cant match up to others? when we feel we've let someone down.

maybe everyone else isnt as perfect as they seem they are. the world has taught us how to put on facades. everyone builds a wall around themselves.

ultimately when we peel off our masks, we're just flesh and blood. vulnerable, weak and not so good afterall.

and thanks everyone for the encouragements. i know im made beautiful, i know im perfect in God's eyes, but im just going through a really rough patch. i have no idea where i am now, maybe its just the process of finding myself, maybe its God wanting to refine me. maybe this and maybe that. or probably im just too tired, too stretch. no idea.

But Jesus, thank You for being so amazing and never failing to amaze me with your love and mercy. its incomprehensible. for i am nothing but a sinful person but You love me like im precious gold. i dunno how to thank You enough. i owe my life to You.

In my weakness let Your strength be made perfect.

2007-06-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

http://www.projectfriendmarked.com/

check out this site! for only a small fee of 5 bucks you can get a personalised bookmark designed for your fren! i think its a really cool idea, that instead of scribbling on a lousy piece of paper, now we can have a professionally designed souvenir for your friends! so cool. it can act as an encouragement or even be printed as a class tee or something.

now the site's having an offer. order before 13 June and have your Friendmark absolutely free!
i think im gonna order a few for my friends!

2007-06-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

the world is superficial.very superficial.

so superficial it forces you to conform to its superficiality.

i was looking at people's pictures from friendster, somehow i cant help but feel a little depressed. just a little.

every girl looked gorgeous, pefect skin, nice clothes, good body and seemingly leading a very fun life too. i know i know, inner beauty beats outward appearances. but i always get reminded that people wouldnt give two hoots about your personality if you dun appeal to their eyes.

and i know its bad to compare. comparison doesnt get you anywhere cos everyone is different. but u cant seem to help it can you? we're living in a world so competitive, the only way to stand out is to compare yourself to another, and prove yourself to be better.

ahhh..yes, every girl wants to be miss universe. but not every girl can be.

you look like shrek but you can still be the king of far far away. no matter what, you will still be known as an ogre.

life is sad, school is not bad. back to study notes. =(

2007-05-24T16:25:00.000+08:00

Quite a many happy things happened between my rage with the beautician until now..

firstly was CCN day. and something really funny happened

that packet of yellow stuff is jello.

and on sat, its Tiff and YaoYi's baptism!

Tiffany:

Gen 5.1 girls! minus sarah the extra. ahhahaha. i still love you sarah!Yaoyi. =)between the not very tall and quite short.

and and..Tuesday Lil, Creston Shawn and me went to watch Shrek3. The movie was not bad, quite funny, the characters are really cute and shrek is still as ugly and so is fiona. yikes. ok..im not a big shrek fan. went to watch just because we had free premier tics. and most importantly we saw zoe tay, ivy lee and some other mediacorp actresses. hahah. too bad i didnt get to see elvin. boo.

heh.thats it for now.

i probably wont have time to blog for the next 3 weeks. busy busy!

2007-05-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

you know...sometimes i think that my beautician is really rude. its either that or she has a really low EQ.

i already have really bad skin and feeling ugly at 18 (when they say im supposed to feel my prime) .plus im dumping lots of money on you and your products to try to make it better and you! dun even bother to think before you shoot your mouth off.

now i know why beauticians are beautician. i've finally understood why they had to make a living out of popping ppl's zits. they have ZERO EQ! arrrrrrrrrrrrgggg. and most of them are from malaysia.(just like mine) no offence though, just spotting a trend.

ok.like my beautician, she keeps telling me what to do with my skin and my daily routine. i know i sleep late and dun drink enough water and i know very well that its bad for my skin. which idiot doesnt know things like that? anyway, she keeps critising and critising and CRITISING! alamak, worse than my mother leh..even my grandma dun nag that much. worse part is, i already told her im busy with school, work and everything else. who wouldnt like their regular dose of beauty sleep?right? sometimes i wonder why cant she just keep her mouth shut and just do my face? as if i can relax with her nagging in that stupid malaysian accented chinese!

what really got me angry was when i was about to pay for my facial. cos i was supposed to pay for the entire package of a hundred plus, but i didnt have enough money so she let me pay the next half of it next week. so nice right? my foot!

when she was writing my receipt she asked"so today how much u wanna pay?"
i thought"DUH! just now already told you im paying half right?"
i said"oh..im paying half" (politely ok. im not a rude person)
she said"ohh..okay. sure can pay half or not? pay already got money to spend?*insert irritating giggles here*

!!!! the part of her asking if i had enough money was fine, she was probably just concerned. BUT!
whats with the giggles? if i im some poor begger or cheater would i have rendered your services for so long and leave my contact no. and address with you? and HELLO! im a student! how much money do u expect a student to have in their bank acct? maybe in malaysia different la..got a few hundred. or go facial dun even need to pay. (cos u know why la..)

haiyah..complain also no use. i must admit that my skin is getting better. sigh. but facials and products are so expensive. it all boils down to the lack of moo-lah. =(

2007-05-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

Meeting with ABG&OMG last week was SUPER FUN!

We laughed or tried laughing at each other's lame jokes and comments. hehe.

funny facts of the day:

our bill was super long (we stayed at cartel for like 5 hours, what do u think?) its like abt 2 inches longer than the thing that clips the bill can.hahah

we tried playing bingo. (signs that we're growing older)

perlin tay's make up bag is like &amp;)$(@&)@$&)&! hahahahha!

&&! sam got a boyfriend! ok..this is not funny. anyways, congrats babe! you are officially out of the spinsters club. heh

okok..picturesss

perlin laughing at lil's retartedness. HEH

Laughed until i blur. hahahahh. so funny!

Warren the cute!

and we ate too much bread with sugar and butter. fat like no one's businessthe bill abit not long only...

the lovely bunch of people. i love them all so much!

...................................................................................................................................

this is for Vincent Kwan who waited so patiently for my update and offering to teach me guitar.

haha! thank you ar! you are such a nice person and in my opinion a good photgrapher with lots of potential to become really good! anyway, may God bring you to a higher level as you remain faithful in the things that He has given you. =)

Lastly,

THANK YOU JESUS FOR BRINGING SUCH WONDERFUL PEOPLE INTO MY LIFE!

2007-05-11T12:38:00.000+08:00

stupid me didnt go to school today. cos i couldnt sleep the entire night! i lied on my bed with my eyes closed for like 5 hours with random thoughts running throught my head. isomnia sucks. i wasnt even asleep when my mom woke up this morning. (which is 7am, too early to wake up for sch, too late to slp also) but somehow i fell asleep sometime after 7 i think. and my eyes fluttered open at 9 am sharp, the time that im supposed to be in school. sigh, was too fed up to go to school. i will slp early and wake up early EVERYDAY from this day onwards.

anyway, going to meet abg in a while! im excited (X9821639816491634!)

2007-05-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

Blake Lewis on American Idol was soooooooooooo cool.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=or1ugHGTz2w
check it out for those who didnt watch. COOL! like totally.

so the funny thing i wanted to talk about was my skating experience in the neighbourhood.HAHA.it was a bad one.

i decided to skate in the neighbourhood.BIG MISTAKE! i warn you people out there, DUN EVER SKATE IN YOUR NEIGHBOURHOOD.

in a typical hdb estate, there are soooooooo many slopes and steps and drains and kids playing soccer. the moment i stepped out of the lift i made a boo boo and fell on my ass, which resulted in a scratch on my right knee. =(

than i went down a flight of stairs thinking that its a straight road, so i can skate with minimal obstruction. To my horror, they were doing some tree planting on the side of that pavement and there were soil and stones everywhere on the path. Me and my amateur skating cannot take this kind of thing! but i braved it and made it to the other side of the path. After that i have to face perils like stairs, slopes, kids and ah peks all over again. i counted, i fell once, were on my knees once and almost fell like 6 times. all this in just a circuit around my estate. alamak. i am the biggest loser la. dunno how to skate still wanna act pro.

2007-05-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

sigh. should i be emo and blog abt my feelings or just blog abt something funny?

how about both? good idea!

We had a little celebration for grandma's 70th birthday yesterday, went to a certain restuarant and bought a lovely looking cake. Honestly speaking, i never had a liking for birthdays, the idea of growing old has never seemed appealling at all. However, it was my gran's bday, probably a chance for everyone to spend more time together for the last few years. Age is catching up on my grandparents. Everytime i look at their wrinkled face i feel like crying. They spent their entire lives working for their children, spending their golden years in baby puke so that their grandchildren have proper guardians while their sons and daughters were busying making a living. And now, they have to suffer the conseqence of old age - ailing health.

Gong gong has parkinson's, a disease that eats you up slowly, leaving you to a slow and painful death.Worse thing is, he doesnt know the Lord. Seeing how unwell he feels during the dinner really makes my heart ache, yet he bears with it knowing that his children would worry if he complains of any discomfort. i cant express how painful i feel inside everytime i would visit him and see the strong grandfather i use to know fade away.

Po po has a weak heart and a bad stomach. She eats like a bird and is sometimes too much of a drama queen. But i still love her. Especially when i see her looking worriedly at her husband of almost 50 years.

They were the ones who brought me up, who taught me the principles of life. Gong gong cooks the most delicious meals i have ever eaten. Po po makes the prettiest dresses for me. i love them with every beat of my heart. it kills me to see them not saved.

Jesus, when You died for us on the cross, You have gong gong and po po in mind didnt You?would You just soften their hearts and take away their physical pain? Lord please..i would give everything to see them saved. Amen.

i have no mood for the funny thing, shall blog tmr

2007-04-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

Its amazing how everyone has 24 hrs a day , 7 days a week, 365 days a yr and the universe has a billion things going on. Magically, everything that has to happen to you must fall within a certain time frame.

Notice how busy you can get on one day and yet have absolutely nothing to do on the next?so weird.

it feels bad enough that you are cashless, it feels worst when you cant even get enough of earth's most evenly distributed resource - time.

sigh. i will not complain.

things to do:

#1 - study (ie. projects, tutorials, tests, presentations etc...)
#2 - section getaway
#3 - leaders retreat
#4 - church camp
#5 - spend time with ppl
#6 - work
#7 - spend time with family
#8 - spend time with God
#9 - other miscellaneous things like shopping, reading and watching Prison Break.
#10 - rest (i just thought i'll add this in to make up a nice number)

=(

just when i thought life was rosy.

2007-04-27T23:34:00.000+08:00

unknowingly, my very first post has started a supposed trend that is causing a rave among everyone who is online at the moment. ahahah

the legendary fish, whose going to be more famous than Nemo.

What Are You Still Waiting For? Get your very own fiftycent fish now! all you have to do is tag my blog. =)

Big enough to slap, small enough to keep in your pocket!

2007-04-27T21:32:00.000+08:00

GUESS WHAT.

Christians out there should be ashamed. i saw my buddist fren's blog and she had this link that says "buddha". (hahahah!buddha can be reached by clicking a website, convenient.) so i went ahead to click on the link.

its alot like a typical church website, just that daily bible verses are now buddha sayings. hmmm, i wonder where those monks got their ideas from since they live in the mountains.

ok..didnt mean to insult buddism or anything, but my point is. Christians, if buddists are doing "evangelism" for their own beliefs, i think we should really be 10000000X more on the ball than they are. since we believe IN THE ONE TRUE AND LIVING GOD. just saying that i think buddha was just once a living dude on earth, wise as he may be, he still died many years ago and is still dead! Jesus died to pay for our sins and rose again! in other words Jesus is ALIVE and kicking.

and, you dun have to click on some website to find Jesus. look into your heart, and ask Him to live in there.

Jesus loves you, and He died for you just so you may live.

2007-04-27T16:07:00.000+08:00

okay, so i had this blog done up awhile back, but never really had anything to say, but today i found some!hahaha

so...today was a happy day.like the kiddy kind of happy. cos i went to Ikea for lunch and bought stuff which i don't need at all. yah..things like that makes me happy.

i bought a yellow ice-cream scoop for grandma, a lion blanket and a fifty-cents stripey toy fish. hahahahaha. okay, this is beginning to sound dumb.

anyway, pics of my harvest. =)

fifty-cent fish. cuteeeeeit even has a tail!

yellow ice-cream scoop for future family Ben & Jerry's time. ;)

the amount of junk i have from Ikea. HAHAH

Aand finally, some candy for the eye...

Wentworth Miller!!!!!

2007-04-02T01:55:00.000+08:00

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